So, she can't have you, nobody else can, but she's got hers so put up with it. How selfish is that? Hedging her bets I suppose if it all went wrong for her tomorrow she'd be wanting to pick up the threads with you. Chances of happiness don't happen often, and when you get to the late summer of your years a little companionship, happiness is lovely. You find somebody deserved of your time and company closer to home, and enjoy it. Good Luck XX